MASIDO

Can God be fooled?

Can I pray reverently
Kiss his feet
For a favor
When deep inside
I distrust him

 

Like a corrupt king
Who promises gold?
And wine
To those who dance
To his tune

 

Can God be bribed?

 

No I don’t trust him
Any more

 

Now
I don’t think he will give me
Anything
Just because I asked him to

 

Only if he wants to

 

And I realize
I have been bribing God
All these years
Of praying
The way I was taught to

 

I have been bribing God

 

 

If I don’t pray
He will be nasty to me
I was taught

 

Like a corrupt king
Who whips anyone
That  does not abide
By his rules
So is that God

 

He has been nasty
All the same

 

When I prayed
Or begged
And bribed him
With my tears

He gave only what
He wanted to give

 

And I realize now
That God does not bargain

 

It’s his will
Or his will

 

And I am angry now
Every time I think of God

 

So much I tell myself
To think of other things
To stop these vexations

 

Yet when I get into a car
On a journey to somewhere
I am caught by a habitual urge
To ask for a favor-

 

Pray for Safety

 

And I am caught by this fear
That if I don’t pray
I will surely die

 

Then I stop and think
How many others have died
That had asked that favor
From their maker?

 

And I realize
It doesn’t matter
Whether I pray or not

 

Things will happen
Bad or good
Those I want
And those I don’t

Praying is bribing
And God does not bargain

And so I quit

I quit praying

 

 

 

 

 

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