I did my first ad a Set Designer/ Props Master yesterday, and even though the timeline was crazy (we had only a day to prep) I enjoyed doing it so much I hope to work on more film projects under the art department- more preferably as a props master because I’ve realized I’m actually pretty good at sourcing things! And it was so amazing the number of helpful strangers I found everywhere I went searching!
More than that, I realized that I still do like being on set, and I’m thrilled by this! At the end of 2019, I was sure I won’t shoot much this year just because I didn’t think I could handle the constant gruel of set life especially after a couple of projects didn’t turn out how I had envisioned. I had decided to go more heavily into animation just to try out a different way of audio visual expression. I wanted to have more control over the visuals especially, without having to compromise on things like I felt I had done so many times before.
After the ad shoot, while I’m still giving animation a go, I’m also jazzed to take part in more films projects. I don’t have to be the director or producer; I actually think I should aim to do a max of 2-3 projects as those roles just because of how much more draining they can be.
It is satisfying to bring to life your own stories, but it is satisfying too to bring to life stories by other people. It is satisfying to birth stories really, period.
I’ve met friends who are looking for stories to shoot, and I happen to like writing short film scripts, so why not give them away to be filmed? I’ve come to accept that I don’t have to be the one to shoot my every story. I have to let go of some of the control and trust others.
The same way someone can put a sugarcane wheelbarrow in a script and trust me to get it for the camera, is the same way I too will trust other filmmakers that do their best, to birth stories I conceive. After I have seen what they’ve worked on before of course!
Feb 29th is for me a toast to collaborations that may be as the year goes on; to placing my trust in the expertise of other people, to placing more trust in my own expertise and to further earning the trust of others too.
P.S- I just got another script this morning. It’s feature length, and under normal circumstances that alone would make me wary already. This time however, though my body is still tired from the shoot yesterday, I am already tingling with the excitement to shoot again! And what a warm beautiful feeling it is!