I decided I will write something today. Anything goddamn it! And it is that I really don’t feel like writing. I mean I have been putting things down…anecdotes to post someday, thoughts for my eyes only, hardly any poetry. I keep thinking, “my dear blog lies unwritten in for more than four months!” And really all it has been raising within me has been a shrug.
I’ve been experiencing life, taking new chances and choosing paths I wouldn’t have before. I haven’t had a dip into depression for the longest time, I’m happy to say! I have come very close severally but I have learnt that being radical will save me. It means that to keep my mental trauma to a minimal, I will choose to kill a relationship rather than fix it, no matter how good it was.
Crafting I have found out, brings not only money but also keeps me sane. Like each time I feel low, if I start working on something no matter how small, I feel better instantly! It’s officially therapy for me and I am creating as much space in my life to keep it that way.
Anyhow, in the spirit of being an adult, even in the selfish ways I let myself be irresponsible, I admit do need to write more. Even when I don’t feel like it, I need to write.
It’s all well to live life and experience it fully like I have been on this mad high, but it won’t always be like this. Even in a half mad state, one can only be so optimistic. When the dark times come, I will need to look back on the true untarnished feelings I myself wrote down to remind myself of these most important things.
So I will get back to writing. Online and off. Some things are currently for my eyes only because they make even me blush but someday, I might share them with the world and meet kindred spirits while at it.
Hello from a hiatus! Let’s not get too attached yet though 😉