February 26, 2014

So my mum knows I have left Christianity. I don’t know how much she knows about it because I don’t know how much my brother told her. He found out from a Face book thread that begun as an innocent question then ended up with me and a pal challenging the bible because another pal was claiming it is flawless.

My cousin was the first to call me to ask what I had written on FB and why my mum was freaking out. So I called my sister because there is usually a thread of information flow and true to my suspicions, my mum had called my sis to ask her of the same. My brother apparently had mentioned something to the effect of me being blasphemous.

I am still waiting for my mum to give me the talk but I am still a little pissed at my brother. This feels a lot like coming out of the gay closet- only, someone ran ahead to mummy and told on me. It’s both good and bad in some ways- good because now I don’t have to break the news to my mum and bad because, well it’s a shock to my mum. We don’t get along but this was not something I was going to pull out in the middle of a quarrel and say “And by the way I abandoned Christianity! In your face!!!” I didn’t want her to know just yet. Not over the phone and definitely not through someone who doesn’t even know how it all begun.

At first,I was tempted to pull down the post just so she won’t see the comments but then I thought- I can’t hide this forever. The whole family may as well know now. Just so I know where I stand with them. My two sisters have taken it pretty well and I am glad for that.

What has struck me as very strange is the fact that everyone is calling everyone to ask what’s happening to me but no one calls me first- except for my cousin that is. What is it with people? And just because I left Christianity and religion does not mean I worship some devil or that I will start killing people for money and all this because I don’t have the moral compass aka the good bible! What is wrong with people who jump to conclusions like this?!

Anyhow am not shocked much with the assumptions being made or with the people calling to say I need prayers and that I am going to hell. Its eye opening to find out that people don’t take too kindly me voicing what even they too question. Apparently, it’s all good to doubt but keep it to yourself ad shut up about it.

I also have found out that it is better to quit being catholic and become a Protestant or vice versa. As long as you believe in the bible that’s okay. It’s even bearable for people if you quit Christianity and convert to Islam;  if you don’t believe in the bible, surely you must believe in the Quran because Islam and Christianity are the only two religions in the world.

However to quit Christianity and religion as a whole? You must be one confused motherfucker and where the hell do you stand; because you can’t stand with yourself- you must stand with some supernatural being. So you’d best look for a religion soonest possible- preferably one that is monotheistic because if you convert to Hinduism, you are called a pagan- or worse- blasphemous to the one true god.

So much for seeking to find eh?



“I have come to believe over and over again that what is most important to me must be spoken, made verbal and shared, even at the risk of having it bruised or misunderstood.”


Audre Lorde
Made of Sand
Not Dura, but Alaminadura

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